The worst day in a while (13/5/22)

Today sucked.

From the very start I was in my own head. Clearly something was wrong yesterday. I woke up at 11am, and had a nap as well. My body has just not been able to wake up.

It’s been one of those days where the weight of the world has felt so large. Ive felt inches away from breaking down for half the day and when it came time to go to swimming in the evening, it all hit me and became too much.

I haven’t felt in control of a large portion of my life for a while, even if I’ve been making amazing progress in virtually every other area which feels so rewarding. I know completely what it is, the how to change it has been another question, but we are slowly making progress.

The evening turned around abit actually. I had several phone calls which were far more exciting than anything else, and sometimes just talking to a friend can help me snap out of it.

I’m still feeling very vulnerable but at least it’s better than where I was