Day 52 (slightly rougher DAY) (24/2/22)

Today has been a rough day.

After the drama of the house 3 doors up from us being raided, we both didn’t get too much sleep last night. So our energy levels were quite low throughout the day.

Swimming was fine this morning, and it wasn’t really until after gym that I started to crash. However, I finished and still had a very productive catch up in the cafe with Jordan. I got home and immediately fell asleep for nearly 2hrs. With just enough time to relax with Abs before afternoon training.

We stick an episode of Blackish on (series we’re watching on Disney+ atm) and then we get an email through from our electricity suppliers that our bills are going to nearly double.

It’s just felt a bit like one of those days. ‘When will it end?’, and lots of doom and gloom. I can’t help but feel for the families out there that are struggling also.

I spoke to my mum on the way to the pool and she’s such a good pillar of support, she can’t always fix things, but just being able to speak to my parents every now and then really helped me move on from this. She helped me realise that, unfortunately, there’s not a great deal I can do about this, so I can’t let it get to me, as it’s out of my control.

After the chat with my mum, the pool session felt abit easier, I know I was quieter than normal, but i didn’t feel quite as low as I did before. So I managed to get what I could out of the set, and take positives and negatives again.

When you're struggling, it is important to share and talk about your problems. It's never easy, but a good saying I try to abide by is 'a problem shared is a problem halved'. Talking can help make problems feel less like that and there is always support out there.

It’s days like these, when you’re feeling low and rubbish, that don’t necessarily have to be a write off, that even if they are small things, you can still make progress forward. And also, most importantly, if you don’t make any progress, that’s also completely fine!