Day 14 notes (17/1/22)

This is a slightly retroactive blog as it’s the morning after. I had a crap day yesterday in a lot of aspects but did realise I was being too harsh on myself by the end of the day. Ironically, as I was getting back on it before bed and was in a better frame of mind, I had planted a tree for 90mins before bed so I couldn’t blog 😅 making up for it now.

After doing literally one minute of browsing insta stories this morning (day after this blog) I learnt that yesterday was called ‘Blue Monday’, because apparently it’s the hardest day of the year for some reason (depressing after over-indulging at Christmas apparently). In my circumstances I definitely don’t think that’s why I struggled so much yesterday, but I did have a really tough day.

I think the comedown after my first competition back in 4months was mostly to blame for this. After the high of my 200fly and actually winning close races on my finishing (a nice positive to take from the weekend as this never happens), the real world came as a massive shock immediately after.

With a ‘to do list’ as long as my arm, not much headway was made and barely any trees were planted through the day. Considering I was having a bad day, my screen time was still surprisingly low (under 5 1/2hrs) for a normal bad day. Which is again a positive. As my usual coping mechanisms from bad days are being diminished.

This day was a celebration of the basic things, I still had ‘3 square meals’ that I prepared from meal prep/minimal effort cooking, I still went swimming, I still managed to switch off in the evening with Abs.

Sometimes it’s important to acknowledge how far I feel I’m moving forward, and one bad day doesn’t mean I have to be too hard on myself and slip back into bad habits, as a bad day now would have probably been an average day for most of last year!